I wanted to get on here to give a little background on myself. For those who are just now joining or have just started following…Everyone has a story and social media is such a thief of happiness. Women are constantly comparing themselves and I want to share how I overcame that.
I have been athletic all my life. I grew up as a competitive gymnast from about 4 until I was around 12. After that I was a cheerleader all through middle school and high school. I have always loved competition and was lucky enough to have a mom who gave me those opportunities.
As I was growing up, I always had a complex about my body. I was thick, ALWAYS had thick thighs and a booty. Starting at a young age I had body image issues. It really started to become a problem in high school. I was captain of the cheerleading squad so my appearance was often “judged” and I felt I had to be perfect. If only I had known at that time how ridiculous this was.
After high school I moved in with my boyfriend and soon after we found out I was pregnant. We got married and did the family life. I stayed home with our son and basically ate all day! We would go out on the weekends and drink with friends and this really took a toll on my body. When my son was 8 months old we were surprised to find out I was pregnant AGAIN!! WHAT?!?! You can only imagine what the next 9 months would do to my already post pregnancy body.
2008: I was about 155lbs when I delivered which is large for a 5′ frame. I had a lot of work to do. It took me a long time to change my mindset to even want to try.
2009: I started going to the gym and trying to eat better. I stayed around 135lbs but didn’t really care to do anything drastic. I stayed in this frame for a while.
2010-2013: I went through some depression and ultimately ended in divorce and a very dark period of my life. This subject is hard for me to talk about but I have healed and he has healed. I continued to work out through this period and just maintained.
2014-2015: I had enough. I started working out really hard. I had a set meal plan and began prepping for my first NPC competition. I was completely 100% dedicated and ended up competing in 2015 and took home 3rd place and also qualified for a National show. I loved the way my body looked however I was judged and ridiculed.
2016-2017: I have had a hard time finding balance after my compeition. It’s really an ALL IN type of mentality you have to have. I got extremely thin and then rebounded really bad after the show.
I am sitting at 131lbs right now. Which isn’t bad but it is not a comfortable weight for me. I have however started to learn how to love myself in all seasons whether I am heavier or in the best shape of my life. I have learned to not let the image of myself control my life. I have started to lift again and eat how I was eating during competition season. My body responds rather quickly and I know what it takes to really make that lifestyle change. In my journey I have hit both spectrums of being too thin and being overweight. No matter where you are at, you have got to love yourself. You just have to make the choice to live healthy. You are worth it. Your current situation does not have to be where you end up. You can progress through anything. There will always be ups and downs but that’s how you grow and ultimately learn how to love yourself! Just remember the body is CRAZY and can do anything you want it to. But YOU have to put in the work and you are the only one that can achieve your goals. You are a bad ass and can do anything you set your mind to!
Love you all,