Remember when it looked like my life was all together? When it looked like I had everything figured out?
Well let me tell you, I have been going through some “stuff.”
First thing, I am tired ALL THE TIME! I am not talking a little “need a nap” tired. I am talking I can barely keep my eyes open during the day. I can drink energy drinks, take fat burners, eat well, drink tons of water, etc…nothing helps. Now, I know for a fact I am dealing with a little bout of depression. I have been to therapy which really helped. This depression sometimes stems from past experiences in my life that I bottle up and would rather not talk about. But I am tired dang it!! haha
Second thing, career goals….I have always searched for what I want to do with my life. I have done all kinds of things from network marketing, personal training (which I love and still do), office work, stay at home mom, Real Estate, etc….I will say this, I absolutely love the freedom I have with my job and they are very good to me (I work in an oilfield office right now), however this job is very unfulfilling and I long for something more. I don’t want to sit here and achieve someone else’s goals. I know that I am meant for something more. So while I continue to work in this position, I still find time to pursue my own dreams. The hustle never stops! I have huge goals!
Third thing, KIDS! They are crazy lol…..They fill my life with so much joy and I wouldn’t change who they are for anything in the world. Boy let me tell ya, they are a mess and that is ok! I recently had to have the respect talk with them because they have been at each others throats and have been so rude to their father and I it’s ridiculous. 10 and 11, whew! It’s such a tough age because they love to test their limits and my goodness they are good at it! Soooo with that said, I am currently trying to get that under control and keep my emotions in check when I get upset with their shenanigans. lol
And to sum it all up,
LIFE is just hard y’all. I am currently finding balance and trying to juggle everything at once and it’s just really difficult. The boys want to play every sport under the sun and I have goals as well. So without telling them no, I try to find the time for myself during their activities. I will write things down and brainstorm on my phone, add notes into my phone, etc.. all during practices.
I love my crazy busy life but you guys I AM TIRED!!! I’ll keep you guys updated and also watch for my Vlogs coming soon to YouTube! EEEEEK! So exciting.
Also, If you are wanting to read a really good book about life and branching out, I will leave you with the link below to check it out!!
I am going to leave you with a quote from that book that I found fitting for this season of my life.
“We suffer for the simple reason that suffering is biologically useful. It is nature’s preferred agent for inspiring change.”